"Your greatest contribution to the Kingdom of God may not be something you do, but someone you raise." ~Andy Stanley

February 6, 2016

The grieving

There are so many posts that I write in my head but that never make it to my computer.

"There's a time to grieve" the Bible says, and this is mine.
But if it wasn't mine, I sure wouldn't want to read about it and so I try not to write about it here.

But maybe I"ll let this one slip through...

If I were to write about it...

I would say that losing your spouse is like having your left arm amputated. -But you are right handed and so you can still function.

I would say that we are all trying to find a new normal because our lives will never be the same.

I would say that going to sleep without him every night is hard and sad. And even the HAPPY looking pj's I bought, don't cheer me up like I thought they would. LOL

I would say that I'm so blessed to have this time to still be able to homeschool and try to make life seem as normal for our youngest as possible, is a great blessing that I don't take for granted.

I would say that it is hard to stop talking to someone that you have talked to every day for 27 years! So I made a journal that is literally called "Things I would tell my Hubby if I could." And I'm on my second one.

I would say that taking care of the red tape, paper work and ramifications of the death of a spouse are like having a second job. I'm still not done making calls and filling out forms. But I can call and tell a complete stranger that "I'm calling because my husband recently died and I need to have this put in my name...." without breaking down and crying. -But if they ask me on what date he died, no promises. I might bawl...

I would say that things could be so much worse but God has me and I see it everyday in every way! Even in the crummy, sad times.


February 4, 2016

Christmas in January

This past weekend, the fam got together and used some of our Christmas gifts!

We went on a shopping spree with a group gift card to all of us, then we went to lunch
 and then we did this:

So fun! 

Nathan had never segwayed before and he LOVED it like we knew that he would. Hubby and I went once on a date, so this was my third time. And it was the other kids second time. 
That made us practically professionals  ; )  
so our tour guide adjusted our segways to let us go at the highest speed which is 12 1/2 miles an hour! Which may sound lame but is plenty fast and tons of fun! 
Then he took us off the usual tour route since we'd done it with him before and we rode in some city streets! While in the neighborhood, we came upon a REAL lemonade stand! 

Be still my heart! Oh, the cuteness! 

Seven customers made their day! 

Then we went for overpriced ice-cream (yum!)

and walked around. 

Love this bunch! 
They are my favorites! 
I love that when given the choice, they always pick to make memories together instead of recieving more things. They rock!


February 3, 2016

Wednesdays in the Word

I love John chapter one.
It tells us that Jesus is the Word.
"In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning." John 1:1

'Word' here means 'revealer or communicator.' Don't you love that God sent Jesus to reveal Himself to us?

 "He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him." (v. 10)

Jesus said "when you've seen me, you've seen the Father." 

When we 'see' God we find out that His heart is and always has been all about redeeming the world to Himself.
"To all who received Him, to those who believed in his name, He gave the right (or authority) to become children of God." (v. 12)

"For the law was given through Moses but grace and truth came through Jesus Christ." (v.17)

And how about this:
"And of his fullness we have all received grace upon grace." (v. 16)
Another version states it as "one blessing after another."
Anyone else feel like they've received 'grace upon grace' since you've come to know Jesus? Amen!

"No one has seen God at any time. The only begotten Son, who is in the bosom of the Father,
He has declared Him."  (v.18) And what a wonderful declaration it was!
So grateful!


January 27, 2016

Wednesdays in the Word

There are two accounts in Genesis that I found interesting this week because they show the different ways that God intervened with people in relation to their places of employment,
so to speak. : )

In Genesis 31 we see that Jacob had a rough go of things working for his father-in-law, Laban.
 In previous studies I've mentioned how much I adore "But God" moments and this chapter has one!
"Your father has deceived me and changed my wages ten times but God did not allow him to hurt me." Amen!

Jacob was an excellent 'employee.'
"I have not eaten the rams of your flock. That which was torn by beasts, I did not bring to you. I bore the loss of it. You required it of my hand whether stolen by day or by night.
 -There I was! In the day the drought consumed me and the frost by night and my sleep departed from my eyes." 
(Finish school Kids, so that you don't have to become a shepherd) ; )

God spoke to Jacob and said "I have seen all that Laban is doing to you." (verse 12)
Isn't that the best? Knowing that God sees and knows, is sometimes all you need!

But, in this situation He intervened!
If Laban declared that all the spotted flocks would be Jacob's, then God made all those animals that gave birth be spotted! When Laban switched to the streaked flocks being Jacob's, all of the sudden they were all having streaked babies.
How agriculturally awesome is that?!
Jacob summed up the situation by saying "So God has taken away the livestock of your father and given them to me." 
He said "God has seen my affliction and the labor of my hands..." 

Now lets see how God deals with Hagar in her place of employment. : )
In Genesis 16, Hagar is a maid to Sarah. She becomes more than a maid when Sarah realizes that she can't have children, she decides to help God fulfill His promise to make she and Abraham parents. She gave Hagar to Abraham to "obtain a child by her." (not a good idea!)
Hagar didn't seem to mind that plan until she actually got pregnant. -Maybe she thought the problem had been with Abraham. LOL
Anyway, she went from being a sweet maid to becoming someone who "despised Sarah!"
I think it is funny that when Sarah talks to Abraham about her situation with Hagar, he says "do to her as you please." Otherwise known as "leave me out of it." Because that's a whole lot of female drama! Sarah's solution was to"deal harshly with her," and so Hagar ran away.

God sent an angel, who found Hagar by a spring of water in the wilderness and He told her to
"Return to your master and submit yourself under her hand."
 -Ouch! I'm sure that wasn't what she wanted to hear. I've always thought Sarah was entirely to blame, but apparently Hagar was in need of an attitude adjustment.
He directed her into a path of humility that surely touched Sarah's heart and improved the situation.
Hagar then calls God by a name that up to that point, He had not yet been known by.
 She said "You-Are-the-God-Who-Sees" or Yahweh Roi.
I love that name of God! It means a lot to me.
Because sometimes, even if your circumstances stay the same, just knowing that He is the God Who Sees, is enough. It was enough for Hagar, because she returned and humbled herself.

Take heart, God sees you in the work place!
If we are being wronged, He can change everything. And if we are in the wrong, He can change us!


January 25, 2016

The dates continue

My sweet hubby has been taking our kids on dates since they were very young.
He loved the chance to hang out with them in a one on one setting and hear their hearts. He always came home impressed with whoever he had taken and with the knowledge of how he could more specifically be praying for that child.

So, when he passed away recently, I decided the dates must continue!
-I kept them in the monthly budget and changed Date with Dad, to Dates with Mom!

Zac went first, this week and we had such a great time! There was a lovely park around this cool restaurant that made for a great place to walk and then we sat and caught up. (And sine he's married, I have a sweet daughter-in-love, that I get to add to the rotation. Yay!)


January 23, 2016

The wedding video!

Nathan recently finished this!




January 20, 2016

When Bible geeks break up

When my hubby and I were dating, he felt the Lord call him to move 3000 miles away to help start a church. And breaking up with me was apart of that plan. (boo-hoo!)
We decided that our break up needed what I can only describe as a theme verse! -Weren't we cute? Who picks a theme for a break up? ; )
We chose Joshua 22:34
"A witness between us that the Lord is God."  
We chose it because it would remind us that even though things had not turned out the way we had hoped, we were first and foremost committed to doing the Lord's will in our lives...because He is God. 

That fateful night we cried so much that the inside of my car was completely covered in moist tissues! At some  point during the sobbing, we exchanged gifts!
 These gifts included our theme verse! ;)
I bought him a rather large pewter heart to hang on the wall with the verse engraved on it. -That may not have been well thought out on part. LOL Thinking back, I'm wondering what bachelor wants to have a heart hanging on his bedroom wall? (I know my boys wouldn't in a million years!) ; )

His gift to me was this lovely locket!

It has the verse printed in tiny type on parchment paper inside. -He had the only friend we knew in the world who owned a computer back then (!) type it out in a tiny font. : )

Obviously, that trial had a happy ending and we eventually got married!

I haven't worn that locket in awhile, but it hit me the other day, how appropriate our theme still is! Even now, when things have not turned out the way we'd hoped, and whether they ever make sense or not, the Lord is God!
That was and always will be our "theme."