September 4, 2015

The wedding fun

My best friend messaged me the other day and said that if she was dealing with cancer treatments and a wedding, she'd want Prozac! bahaha!

There is certainly a lot going on! The other day, I was tempted to pray, "Lord, what were you thinking?!?" ; )

The wedding is in 6 days and just about every relative we have, will be here in 4! Ahhh!
Still so much to do!

In between caring for Hubby and doctor's appointments, I had to figure out how much fabric to buy to make something like this since Zac already built the frame. I'm not really a seamstress so it was scary!

Yesterday Joy and I made something like this...

And then I had furn addressing 37 place cards using my very rusty calligraphy skills that were never that good to begin with, for the rehearsal dinner.
Today, I'm going to the restaurant where we are holding it, to figure out the seating arrangements. 

Tiffany moved into the apartment that will be their first home after the wedding! So exciting! 
 Poor Andrew fell off the ramp of the U haul truck and rolled his ankle. Seriously hoping he won't need crutches to walk down the aisle next week! But no matter what, he is going to be looking GOOD!

Next on the agenda is to get a hold of the very busy groom-to-be and practice dancing to our mother/son song. Not that either of us can dance, we are just two shy people who will be doing good to pull off some swaying! ; ) 

And speaking of shy, the bride and groom have opted to have their 'first look' at each other in private before the ceremony, with the photographer. Isn't that sweet! A great idea! Can't wait to see those pictures eventually! 


September 2, 2015

Wednesdays in the Word

When I think about what part of the Word is impacting me right now, these things come to mind:

When Hubby was in the hospital, I carried this verse in my pocket everyday because I didn't have time to memorize it and it gave me comfort.
"I will be with him in trouble. I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him My salvation." ~Psalm 91:516 

When we got home, we got a list of all the verses in the Bible on healing and we read and pray them several times a day. 

 On the first day of chemo, I took a picture of the sunrise and the Lord kept putting a verse on my heart about "the Sun of Righteousness" the whole time I was looking at it. 

Once he got started on the treatment, I googled it and then...bawled my eyes out when I read this:
"But for you who fear My name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in His wings. And you will go free, leaping with joy..." Mal.4:12

Sunday, Hubby felt up for going to church and before the service we arranged to have a James 5:14 moment. 
"Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven."

Except that we didn't "call for the elders" we texted. : )


August 31, 2015

The weekend that only God could plan

Ever since Nathan moved to CA, he has wanted Zac to come and visit him. He sooo much wanted to take Zac around to his favorite beaches, mountain hikes, restaurants etc... But Zac had school and work and then he decided to propose...
So, for the past two years it hasn't worked out and now he's about to get married!

Then, Nathan, who is also the best man, bought Zac a plane ticket as a gift, to spend this past weekend with him as sort of a bachelor party! Such a sweet and generous gift. And it couldn't have been given to a more grateful guy!

But, long before they planned this, only God knew, that four days before this fun weekend started, Hubby would have the cancer return.
And that two days before the weekend, Nathan would decide to move back home!

We were all just in utter awe of the timing and how the Lord knew they would need each other this weekend and He made a way for them to be together!

So, not only did Nathan give Zac a great time, Zac was there to comfort him and help him get ready to move!

Late tonight I'm picking them up at the airport, and very soon, one will be moving out and one will be moving in. And I'm so glad they grew up to become the best of friends! It makes this mom's heart so happy!


August 29, 2015

Life is one wild ride

It is amazing to me that two and a half weeks ago our life was normal and now it has taken all these crazy twists and turns. It seems to have been turned inside out and shaken.
Never take your 'normal' for granted!

Everything is kind of a blur and it has been a very emotional week for our family.That hospital stay made it feel like time stood still, but of course, it didn't and now the calendar in my head is off. Also, I'm not sure what I have shared here and what posts I just 'wrote' in my head.

Wednesday we received some bad news at the cancer hospital and so we are clinging to the Good News of the gospel!
The esophageal cancer that Hubby had last year has moved to his lungs. I'm reminding myself that the 'stages' and the terms are man's definitions and God is above all of these! And nothing is impossible for Him.

Yesterday, Hubby started an aggressive chemo plan. You know you are in the infusion center, when you see a grown woman hugging her teddy bear and waiting for treatment.
Chemo is rough!!!
Frankly, I can't believe Hubby has to do it again. So far he feels good, but that is due to some lovely steroids that you have to take before and after. He may not be feeling well for long...
 but he SHOULD be feeling OK for Zac's wedding, which is I think, two weeks away! Thankful for that!

What makes my heart so sad about doing chemo is the fact that last time either it or the drugs changed his personality for a time. And then he went into an almost comatose kind of state for awhile and it was like he wasn't there. Then add to that the unbearable suffering we all had to witness him go through and well, you get the idea....It was awful.
So, this time I kind of know what to expect (but I'm absolutely believing for better!!!) and I feel like the guy he is, is about to leave me for an extended time and that makes me so sad...

Nathan is leaving CA and moving home to be with us for the next several months and we are all so thrilled about that. What a dear young man to put his life on hold and want to come home and serve us and spend time with his Dad. May God bless him!

Two weeks ago, when we were in the ER, a doctor came in and told us Hubby had fluid in his left lung and that it was probably caused by I shed some tears of course, and she said some comforting things and then left. Next, the resident physician took a turn coming in and he knew we had just heard that news. But by then, I think Hubby had said something funny anyway, we were both smiling when he walked in and he was almost angry. (weirdest thing!)  And then he said "Are you _____(Hubby's full name)? Then why are you smiling?!" He was serious.
(How is that for no bed side manner, good grief?!)
But if I had to relive that situation again, I would like to have had the presence of mind to say
"Because he knows The Great Physician, Jesus!"

Even in suffering he smiles!
It is that glorious Good News that will do that to a guy!


August 26, 2015

Wednesdays in the Word

If you somehow missed Kathie Lee Gifford's tribute to her husband, Frank, last week, you have to watch it. Hubby and I watched it on FB in the hospital and cried like babies. 
It was such a beautiful presentation of the gospel!!! And so very inspiring! 


August 25, 2015

Home from the hospital and loving it!

First of all, all of you healthcare professionals out there, have my heart forever! What amazing people you are! What kindness and mercy you extend to those in pain! You chose to help people in crisis who are not at their best and sometimes far from being congenial. You rock!
~My hubby happens to be every nurses's dream patient because he is so kind, polite and calls everyone by name, no matter how much pain he is in. He's just amazing like that!

Anyway, Hubby got discharged yesterday!!! Whoo-hoo!
And when they say you can go, they mean it. They had us out the door in 15 minutes! I was shocked because when the cancer hospital discharged him it was a long process and it took hours before we were actually walking out of the door, but not at this hospital. I packed like the building was on fire and Hubby was so glad to leave, he waited for the transporter in the hallway! Bless him!

It is so good to be home, especially in light of hospital Roommate #5. But that is a story for another day. Tomorrow, he has an appointment with the cancer hospital and today he gets to rest in PEACE and QUIET!


August 22, 2015

Update on my hero

Hubby had surgery on Thursday and it went well. They drained two  and a half liters from his left lung!

Yesterday we had to send his brother (who is a stroke patient) back to their other brother in CA. We felt bad that we had to cut our caregiving turn short this way. But it was necessary.

I think this is a sweet picture. They were saying goodbye:

Today has been rough. Hubby will have a CAT scan and a blood transfusion.
Prayers appreciated!